Swirl ~ ~ ~

Such a pretty word and, upon further reflection, one filled with sensation.  Used either as a noun or a verb, my association of it's beauty remains the same.  As with many things, the word has potential, both positive and negative.
My minds eye brings me to a place in time as a young girl, standing in my backyard, arms outstretched to my sides as if wings.  Face to the heavens, eyes closed as I whirl and swirl feeling the sensation of freedom with a lightness in my heart and mind.  My stomach feels the excitement but is a bit tentative about the end result of this frolic.

How interesting that what was once an exciting and welcome sensation can become, in adulthood, overwhelming and confusing.  By nature, youth offers freedoms which only come with youth .  Ignorant of the experiences and responsibilities that await us as we add years to our life, we play, unaware.  With each candle added to our birthday cake (if we are so blessed) there are also new possibilities, opportunities, understandings and challenges, both positive and negative.

The young cannot help but be curious about and dream of the future.  As an adult, I soon began to understand and appreciate why God doesn't allow us to foresee what lies ahead.  Many of us would choose not to go there.  But in His wisdom He reminds us that,
"No trial has come to you but what is human. God is faithful and will not let you be tried beyond your strength; but with the trial he will also provide a way out, so that you may be able to bear it." I Corinthians 10:13 ~ The New American Standard Bible (NASB) ~ St. Joseph's Edition

Still filled with positive associations, the word is now capable of connoting a particular negativity in my mind, literally.  Swirl, when used in the context of describing my ADHD brain, brings with it a sensation of discomfort and confusion.  Too many ideas in the vortex of my mind: not a very pretty picture let alone, sensation.  The dizziness which I once considered so much "fun" no longer holds the same attraction, in more ways than one.  And yet, as with most situations in life, I do have the freedom of choice to discontinue the swirl.  Not quite as simple as falling to the ground to wait for the world to stop spinning, yet worth the hard work that calming the overload which an over-abundance of ideas and choices often present.  A mind is a terrible thing to waste.

But swirl is still a pretty word. ~